Goddamn it, LJ, I WANT MY ANIME ICONS BACK. DON'T JUST LEAVE ME WITH TOKU


And also

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAMEN RIDER?! D: IDK.

It's a new year and that means cleaning, but not for me.

If you feel that you do not want my journal on your friends list, do not fret! You can freely do so now. The last thing I desire is bad blood. I completely understand if things just happen like that.

If you do desire this, please at least comment here so I am in the know and de-friend you as well.

Give me a character and I will tell you:

(a) three facts about them from my personal canon/fanon
(b) a reason he/she sucks
(c) a reason he/she is amazing
(d) five things that I’d like to see happen to them
(e) five people that I can’t ship that character with and why


Hmmmmmmmmmm

Nope, That's all I have to say right now.

Being Super smart would definitely be the answer there. Money can be earned through the other depending on one's common sense.

Comment with a character of yours and mine and I will tell you (possibly in detail) what their feelings are on/about said character.

This season of Ksmen Rider is over. I feel it was a very good ride and will go down as my favorite season to date. I was a little worried at first, but I'm glad that everything came together.

Now I feel absolutely confident in apping Shoutarou or anyone from Double when the time comes. It will come. W, being my favorite, deserves to be rped. In my heart I know this is correct :|




The return of Cross is going swimmingly. I will be talking with everyone today or tomorrow or so to make sure everything is going as it should.

I really just feel so very annoyed. With the closing of Cross and the person I WAS rping with just fucking annoying the hell out of me, I have found I have.... not much to do anymore.

For me, it's not as interesting to rp with people that I live with. It always feels like there is a ...lack of something unless someone else is also involved with what is going on. At that point, it feels okay. I also remember the other thing I hated: talking to people I know people I live with talk to. Remembering this now, I see why I'm sort of fed up.

It's going to be rather hard to replace her, but I have to because my annoyance wont go away unless I do. I've invested a lot of time, brainpower and sacrificed a lot of ... comfort and piece of mind to accommodate that person. To then be treated like what I do pales in comparison to the person sitting next to me really does piss me off. She's depressed and unhappy, I can't make it about myself. This is at least what I tell myself. I'm just not as great a friend as she is. I am, in comparison, nothing.

I'm not really sorry I can't offer to go and see you to end your loneliness. I'm not really sorry that when you decide your depressed and I do my best to help you and you give me "I don't think I've never been happy" that I don't automatically automatically offer to do what you've already told me is impossible. Though I did talk and try to pick up your moods or try to talk to you and make everything better, I already knew nothing I was going to say was going to do anything for you because you continue to tell me you want someone physically there. What the fuck am I exactly suppose to do in that case? What have you done for me in order to prove me to think bending over backwards to find a way to make you happy in the end is worth it?

It's sort of sad the only time she really talked to me was because Char was too sick to get on the computer. I wash my hands of it. Finding other people who will rp with me over AIM can't be impossible.

This is sort of my fault for getting into the Toku stuff anyway. If I hadn't, none of this would have happened and I wouldn't be at this point.

Fuck Fuck Fuck Fuck Fuck


Char is not doing better at all. She's shaking involuntarily and having body spasms.



Back to the ER. brb.

Char was badly sick so she's been out of commission. I've been going to keep Jen company in this case. Together we've started watching Boukenger, while with Char I am watching Hana Yori Dango. It hurts so good. While I'm alone I think I will watch Bloody Monday.

Monday will be when we seriously start the cosplay.

Cosplay work is starting in the next few days. The wigs are being picked out and everything is getting under way. It's almost exciting, you know?


This past weekend, Cross Closed. It was a sad time for me. I had been in that RP for 5 years, but I knew it was the time to just let it go, if only for now. I know that if I was to reopen it, I would change it quite a bit. Partly for playing ability and mostly since lately what I've been rping is Kamen Rider and J-Drama's so I'd want to change it a little so I could play those characters there. Personally.... I think Kamen Riders in Cross would just be fucking awesome.

I made a lot of friends in Cross. Some of them I live with and a lot of them I don't really talk to anymore though I wish I did. It is just a fact of life that people move on in their lives after a while. While you hope that things will stay the way they were forever, you know it's impossible.


But now I am thinking of where exactly to put most of my rp focus now. I'd like for my main RP to be more ....free form. Something I could put my characters in and know that I don't have to worry about something or other impeding anything I'd want to do with them. The character's I really want to app somewhere right now are Shoutarou (Kamen Rider W) and Yuusuke (Kamen Rider Decade/Kuuga). At one point I was very much going to app a different character into CFUD, but after thought and consideration, I know very well I could not successfully go through the apping process that they have there. I don't believe in my skills or my ability to pull off characters in the ways I know that more well-known people would like for them to act. Also, while being very freeformed, CFUD would feel too restricting to me. I don't really like having so many eyes on how I'm doing things. I'd rather just have my fun and let everything proceed the way things will proceed without worrying "Is someone going to say something?" or "Is this completely okay to do with him?" or "This doesn't really look like shipping does it?"

That same thing might be why I have been faltering on having Ragna anymore. He is the main characters in his series and suddenly the BlazBlue cast in Amat has been picking up members so I am started to feel like I am not the correct person to be playing him there since it's already an odd setting. I would be just fine continuing to play him if it was anywhere else that wasn't Amat.

So.. now to find a good rp I can.. do things in.


I'm a shipper, damn it. I'm not even going to sit here and act like I'm not DX even when it comes to Toku.


D/ling the new Air Gear musical now. +_+ Once it's finished I am dead to all until I have finished watching it.