MY INNOCENCE! DESTROYED!

I hate how much I love this series. And then reading that LeoJomy doujinshi... *_* Screw it :| I know i was trying to get Char or anyone to watch it with but but I'm done with that! I know it must be boring for most people but I just have to watch it again DX on my own if I must! I've actually wanted to sit here and watch it again since I watched it the first time. It's sort of amazing, I don't do this with any other series I like. Usually the first runs are all I actually need.


Even more sad, the only other person I know likes these series, I don't talk to or have friended :| OH WELL. I WILL FORGE ON ON MY OWN. It happens enough anyway. Maybe if the "Clockwork 2.0" get's off the ground, I'll just Terra E there~


I've also started playing Heart no Kuni. Hopefully I can finish one storyline or another before the end of Atlas' trial. After that I am resigned to the manga want waiting like everyone else since my Japanese is not advanced enough to translate entire sentences :| After that I will continue with the Are You Alice? Drama cd's. At least with that they have translation videos up on youtube. Sadly I already made a Dyna journal from that too. HIS VOICE JUST CONFUSES ME! He's drawn too effeminate in the manga to have Inoue Kazuhiko as a seiyuu DX!

After both of those are finished, I'll go back to beginning my playthrough of Togainu no chi that I've just neglected to remember I was doing. Before all of that I will finish the watch and review of Loveless. Somewhere between the Are you Alice? and Togainu no chi I'll think about reviewing Gravitation. I will also be playing and finishing both Professor Layton games in the mist of all of this.


It will be all completed before the end of Feburary. That may be the boring part of it all, actually.


Eventually.... Soon... I should do something about my paid account having run out. I should. I know this. It's on my long list of what needs to be done.


( Everyone is doing this meme, the rp one )

I love how everything is ok to say as long as it has nothing to do with them. I really do get sick of having to listen or deal with people saying bad things about the people consider friends. I suppose at this point I should just say fuck it and stop holding in anything I'm going to say as well? =_= I had to say this same shit to Koko. I'm not going to talk shit about your friends so I sure as hell don't want to hear shit about my friends either. I will defend a person I find worth it. If it results in my losing my temper and hitting you, I'll do it. If you don't like someone? Go ahead and don't like them. I just don't want to hear it.

I'm apping more people in Paradisa because I refuse to just give up another rp. It's not like I find it will do a lot of good but I'm going to try. I can't keep doing that just because it's not Cross. I like rping and need a place I can play canon characters too with a wider range of people. It's just sad that I end up sitting here doing the same thing every single night.

Not to mention I haven't been feeling 100% lately. I don't like it since I hate when myself or another person complains about health. Unless your dying or have a real excuse for it I really just can't stand it. I don't tolerate it from myself at all. Dad always hated I wouldn't.

Is it really ok for me to just be highly pissed off at all of this? I dunno. I really should just let it all go. Seems... shafting to me. I want to say "Fuck you too, bitch." but you know? I don't really have a right or reason.

About 2009: I'm so fucking glad it's over :| There was no good that came from that year. This year. Here is to a better one.


Things I learned:
-Don't think "God don't wake him up DX" and then go check a seemingly dead body :| which is dead. Thus you feel like a heartless douche.
-Don't take people's word for anything.
-No matter if you think things will be ok if you are gone a little while? It won't be.
-Florida's climate is my kind of climate and If not for the hurricanes, I'd move there.
-Ignorance is not bliss, it's fucking annoying
-Trust no one. No one. No one is worthy until proven otherwise.
-My mother is nuts. More so than before.
-Need to just... travel more. Fuck what other people say about cutting down. Need to go get the passport card for the Canada con.
-I don't need to be with other people to have fun. In fact, a lot of the time they kill it for me with stupidity.
-and in closing. I stress to myself: No one can be trusted but yourself.




2010, if you are not better than 09, you're getting removed from the calendar and we're just jumping to 11 :|

One part of my New Years Resolution is to do more Cosplay [for myself]. Even if they don't make it to a con, I would like to photoshoot these outfits. This is a list of the ones I knew had to be done this year. If at all, I would also like to acomplish 3/4ths of this list by year's end.


The Secret Project - can't say yet
Luxio - Pokemon Gijinka
Vincent Nightray - Pandora Hearts
Either Chesire Cat or Rufus Barma - Pandora Hearts
Taokaka - Blazblue
Jin Kisaragi - Blazblue
Len Alice human sacrifice - Vocaloid
Gakupo - Vocaloid
Magnet - Dunno which pair... but obviously I'll be Len or Gakupo :| - Vocaloid
Regene - Innovator - Gundam 00
Tieria - Casual and S2 - Gundam 00
Mukuro - TYL post jail outfit - KHR
Fon - KHR

Happy Birthday Malica~





And I suppose Merry Christmas to the rest of you c:

Char, Calm your shit down. This is nothing to throw tantrum's over. One person doing it is more than enough. There will be no hitting or you will be the one taken down.

It's honestly just amazingly awesome to come back and see my entire rp as lost their mind. I wasn't even gone three months and then to hear all of the shit that was said or done? And here I thought we were putting a stop to all of this sides shit. Obviously again, I was just the oblivious idiot who thought everyone was getting along. Isn't that typical?

Don't give me your fake concern bullshit either. I'll call you out on it. You know who you are.

It really is sad to feel apart from everyone when you're suppose to be the headmod, you know? Mutiny, maybe? I'd sooner sink the ship and watch everyone drown first.





So anyway! Tonight I'll tag around paradisa with Leon and go finish Suzaku's app. I have to get that finished, looked over, corrected and final drafted before the first. That's not a lot of time left. Plus I have to do Riddle's app. Now that I have more of an idea about him, this will be relatively painless~

Cosplay plans are under way for Momocon! We have already reserved our ticket place to assure a place at the con. Once I go back to Alabama, we should be starting to do the first Cosplay project that must not be spoke of. The second cosplay has ended up being Pokemon Gijinka~ I have choosen to do Luxio. Isn't he cute? c:

I still wonder if I'm going to Fanime. I suppose that depends on Cross' condistion. I suppose this also goes for the Canada con that I wanted to go to. Oh well. Sad sad sad.



But now Koko is doing he usual distraction with A lot of Jade and Luke AMV's c: so Bye bye for now~

So I started playing Guilty Gear 2 Overture today. I knew I should have gone into the wiki first before I started playing. I had no idea Yuri was Sin's VA. But you know what? When I looked into the voiced... I realized Sol's voice actor is Schneizel, Ky is Lloyd, Sin is Suzaku, Raven was Diethard, Izuna is Gino and then Dr. Paradigm is Daddy Brittania? I no longer could take this game seriously :| I've been also re-watching Code Geass so it was impossible for me not to go this route.


Also, my mother's decided to relive the old days. I now have Christmas pajama's I am required to wear of Christmas day for the sake of her memory lane and family activities. At least she knows I plan to go back very soon. I was rather surprised she asked herself 'when am I going back' as if I actually was. Either people have been assuming things or she did it on a whim to see if I even liked it.

Either way.... back to Guilty Gear. Damn you Raven for being hard as hell to beat.

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid Personality Disorder:	Very High
Schizoid Personality Disorder:	Very High
Schizotypal Personality Disorder:	High
Antisocial Personality Disorder:	Low
Borderline Personality Disorder:	Low
Histrionic Personality Disorder:	Low
Narcissistic Personality Disorder:	Low
Avoidant Personality Disorder:	Moderate
Dependent Personality Disorder:	Low
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder:	Moderate
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Other things have me slightly annoied, but mostly I've had a good time yesterday c:

....... Tager's Alternate Truth with Bang........




I love Blazblue. I didn't want to admit this game is better than Guilty Gear because it wasn't.... until this.

Just to be fair. In case people think I was just being insensitive? I wasn't. If it was uncomfortable? It should have been stated instead of just passive aggressively handled.

Am I just giving an opinion from an outsider's point of view? Not entirely. I've been molested against my will quite a few times. By family members even.

You know, just for the damn record.

LITTLE BIG PLANET!!!

This game is very fun and very time consuming....IN IT'S AGGRAVATION! I love it :| I love it to pieces... but I also want to die. ;A; I hate it... and love it..... Why do this to me, Little Big Planet?

It's expanding! So suddenly too! I'm so happy for it *~* Now I will wait patiently for the people from Onicon to app plus Hitch and Kayura-nee. I MEAN IT YOU TWO :c


Awna-sama :c you should come back too. We miss you a lot. Don't make me bother you endlessly.

► Pick up to 10 OTPs.
► Describe them in less than 15 words.
► Have your flist guess the OTP.
► ???
► PROFIT.


1 He tried once but the tide was against him
2 A princess will always need her knight, more than her brother would SuzakuEuphie - Fort
3 "We may never meet again, but we'll never forget each other." LeonSora - Fort
4 It doesn't work as well in their original verse as it does in this one
5 He may be only like four, but he'll never leave him
6 Digital twins that were separated by fate and brought back by destiny
7 It's a shock they aren't sick of him quoting that damned play
8 They were never intended to get what they want. Each other doesn't work either.
9 Retarded singing robots and one of then technically isn't included anyway Gakupo/Kaito - Char
10 I hate the popular pairing here, he needs the not-so-shota instead LockonSetsuna - Char

I don't have much to say about it in a whole so I'll just go through it.




Friday
Met Lina, that was cool. Eventually met Bah-chan but that was short and more or less a disaster.Char went off to hang out with them and I went back to the room.


Saturday
The FB cosplay wasn't even finished until 3pm. That's when we left the room. In that span of time, we spend 3 hours there [with a break in between to go back to the room] and then Jen was done for the day. So Char and I went back and hung out with Lina. We just talked and hung out for a while, Went and got jack in the box and delivered food to Bah-chan.


Sunday
Reborn day. We met Tsuna, Xan-Moto, Fran, Bel & Gokudera that I will be adding to my friends list~ It was a fin time and they were great. I'll be emailing them later so we can exchange links for our respective rp's. Then later we hung out with Hitch & Kayura-nee-san. Kana-mama there after we had dinner with Hitch. It was awesome to talk about random stuff and the good old days of Cross. It was really fun. I'll be sure to go out there and visit them more.


Monday
On the way home, we stopped and visited New Orleans. We walked around the French Quarter and ate at a restaurant on their balcony overlooking Bourbon St.On the way home I realized Char and I share no Music tastes. It's not important though.



I have no pics though.

I never want to do this again. Or at least do it with them. There should have been more than enough time for all of this. I should have actually already all been done before this. Then they sit here and criticize everyone and everything when what they're doing isn't even straightened out, planned and fully prepared. When things aren't planned out and organize, I get very easily pissed off and irate. I like things to be neat and orderly. I hate last minute rush. Truly? All of the cosplay's could have been finished if we, since I got here, Dedicated three days to each costume so that we had time to make sure it all was complete and looked ok and then used the extra days to make sure it was all complete and we had everything so that it doesn't feel like nothing was accomplished.


I have time to work of Megacon and Momocon from now to March so that will at least be better. I'm not going to deal with your bull when I get home, Koko. So you better have everything in order and handled by yourself. This includes replacing my PS2.


At least good things are happening in Reborn. I can't really rp until I get home so all logs will be held until about the 8th. I should be getting a cellphone of my own when I get back home so people will be able to personally contact me for once. I know, "Gasp, shock and awe" right?

My drive at all to be excited about Houston is completely dead. I just want to get there and get over and done with it. I'm not really faulting anyone for this. There is no blame to place. Momocon will be better. I at least have one cosplay mapped out in my mind. It's suppose to be super secret so I wont say what it is or what it entails.

Besides this pile of utter cosplay shit, I've enjoyed my time here thoroughly. Though I suppose I will have to have a talk with Char about a few things. It may be more than I'm just easily upset-able right now with all of this disorganization, so I'll at least wait and see how all of that plays out, but whatever I'd have to say isn't something "omg horrible" anyway.



At the very least, I've read through a lot of manga and seen MGS 2&4 played all the way through. This is, at least, awesome.


My thoughts for NaNoWriMo? I'll completely miss it. Being here will take away too many days to make up. I won't be lazy though, I'll just fic a lot more than usual next month to make up for it.




Things to buy when I get home
-Tekken 6
-Metal Gear Solid Video game box set
-Dissidia

I fully understand what happens now. I was curious as to why things happen the way they do and now I know. It isn't fair, that I will admit. I don't even understand why she lets it go like this. On the other hand, she also has to start learning how to just do things anyway without her. If she isn't going to do anything until the very very very last minute, she needs to get everything else fully done so there is nothing that can be held against her about doing the same thing.

I at least know what to and what not to do. There is the fact they work, but it's not late enough that they should be letting it effect them this much.


I suppose in the end this is a lesson and now I know what I'm doing when I get home.



Pfft, I have to go take a shower. Should I cut Hatori's wig now? Maybe she wants Jen to do that :|.... e_e at least I'm finished with all of my stuff. Maybe I should put a protective coat of something over the painting I had to do to Ayame's shoes... But I dunno what D:




LINA, I ALSO NEED YOUR NUMBER.